Anguish

http://youtu.be/lGMG_PVaJoI     Please before reading this blogpost watch this video, and think.

Wow. Did that video touch,convict and challenge you? Think. Personally I know this video speaks directly to me becuase I KNOW I love my comfort zone. Think. God, please bring us out of our comfort zone, please. While Christians are sitting on the sofas the world outside is crumbling. Im concerned I don't have anguish. No sorrow,no pain,no heartach, no burden for my world which is going to hell. When I think about the babies dying at the abortion clinic Im sad, yes, I may go to the abortion clinic and minster, I may pray, but am I so sad that I cry,weap, pray and pray for it stop. Sadly no. Which I am embarrased at.  O God forgive me for not having anguish, for not being concerned about others. Don't get me an easy life, give me a life I will be proud of because with every ounce of strength I served you.

God is ready, Are You?

Yesterday in church we had a special speaker come. His name is Ghuna Kamar(sp) In part of His sermon he talked about forgiving ourselves. He said so many times we ask for God's forgiveness and he gives it to us but then we never forgive ourselves. He said we always think of our past. We always think of the things we have done wrong but God doesn't, once we have asked God to forgive us for our sins he does and forgets about them. The words "If only" are words that are killing our spirit. Forgive yourself, the people around you and then forget. God is asking are you ready ? Forgiving myself is one thing i really struggle with, i pray God would help me each day make less mistakes and help me when i do make mistakes to forgive myself as he has forgiven me.

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1:9

"Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.""
Isaiah 1:18

There will be a Day---

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
 I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone
 Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
 I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….
 There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face. - Jeremy Camp

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.
No matter what you are going through, let me encourage you, there will be a day when NONE of these earthly pains will matter. They simply won't  be there. AT ALL! Isn't our God amazing!! No matter how sad or horrid feeling you feel, there will be a day! Isn't that something to look forward too! Heaven isn't an after thought, it's what we should be focuing on now! When you run a  race you aren't looking at the half point line but the finish!!!

My Broken Neighborhood----

My State, my city, my street is a broken bottle. When a bottle is dropped it crashes into a millon pieces, just like my fellow Mississippians hearts are in a pieces. God's heart is also many broken pieces when we sin. Broken glass is very sharp, sharp enough to pierce the skin and cause all kinds of hurt, disscomfort and pain.  This is my town, street, city thats broken. Mine! What am I doing about it? Nothing! Im to engrossed in myself to notice other peoples broken and shattered lives.  Save my state, street, city dear God. We are on our hands and knees begging and crying out for things to change, we are begging to have our prayers answered. God we know you are near and know you love and hear us. Answer our petitions. Amen

I wrote  "My broken Bottle Neighborhood" after I went to WeWillGo. Since then I have revised what i wrote down and have come up with this, pretty much the same thing as what i wrote before just worded different and a changed title. Before attending WeWillGo with my GoLocal group i had never really thought before of people around me in my neighborhood and city as being broken. I thought broken people were the crack addicts, sex addicts and the bums. After WeWillGo i didn't think that anymore, i mean yes those people are broken but my neighbors are also broken even though they have nice clothes and drive expensive cars. I finally realized your outside appearance doesn't make you broken.
The WeWillGo people encouraged us to walk around our street and pray for the people in the houses they also encouraged us to do lots of praying for our community. One Story they told was about a lady in a really nice neighborhood, she would walk down her street and tell them about the people in each house and how they were broken. One family  had the police come to their house at least once a week because of their son, one family the parents were getting a divorce and the list goes on.
I want to be a missionary  but if i can't be a missionary to my community then how can i be a missionary somewhere else?

Not Welcome In Hell

This morning before church I was making copies and I over heard a lady talking. What she was saying was this "Hell wasn't created for Human Beings." Never in my life had I heard something like this so I kept listening said she heard from a pastor that hell was created for Satan and his demons, but when man sinned it became a place for us.  This is how she explained it "when intruders break into a house the welcoming isn't very cordially. Right? Well when human beings go to hell it's going to be worse for them not only because its hell but because they aren't welcome. Hell wasn' created for us but guess what was? Heaven! As Jesus said in John 14:1-4 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." Thanks be to God who is preparing a place for believers in the Lord Jesus Christ.  Isn't it a spectacular thought that God created a place for US to live with him for eternity!!!

~Called to serve~

Lately I've been thinking and praying a lot about what I'm going to do after high school, this being my junior year, I suppose I should start giving it a little thought :) I've recently had a great desire to go on a mission trip, or more of a desire to do something "big" for God. I was telling Mama about these thoughts, explaining that I felt like I needed to go somewhere far away in order to be serving God. Mama didn't discourage these idea's, but instead she told me that right now I'm where God's put me. Maybe he doesn't need me to go halfway around the world to serve him, or even to do "big" things for him, I can do it right now, here in my home! EVERYWHERE we go we are called to shine the light of Jesus, not only in far away countries, but here, in our communities, in our churches, in our homes. If I can't serve Jesus where he's placed me for the time being, then I certainly can't serve Him anywhere else. Right now, at age 16, I'm under my parents, so one of the best ways I can serve God and bring glory to His name is by honoring my parents and being a help to them right now where he's put me, and if I get a chance to go out in serve well then praise Him! And I'm not saying that going to a far away country is a bad idea, I think spreading the gospel in foreign places is WONDERFUL, but, if that's not where God wants you at the time, don't feel discouraged like there's nothing you can do for Him, look around you, there are opportunities everywhere :)

::My Life for Thee::

I (Bekah) have always had a strong love for poetry, constantly writing my feelings down in the beautiful language of poetic form! Lately I've been thinking about how nothing in this life I do is right. I'm constantly failing, and I'm so full of pride. But Jesus says come, my yoke is easy, my burdens light. I turned some of these thoughts into poetry:

\                      "How oft my heart turns from thee God
                        And looks for worldly goods abroad!
                        My eyes, they wonder from they face
                        To look on things in this worlds space.
                        My tongue, instead of singing praise,
                        Speaks haughtily throughout the day!
                        My feet, instead of walking THY ways,
                        Walk in my paths, and i do stray!
                        In seeing my life, so full of dross,
                        I fear i do forget the cross!
                        How you, the Lamb of Calvary,
                        Suffered, bled and died for me!
                        How can a mortal repay this debt,
                        Being a liar, a sinner, a hypocrite?!
                        And you're response is come to me,
                       My yoke is easy, my grace is free!
                       Lord, use my life for other to see
                       The wonderful things you've done for me!
                       And let my light in this world shine
                       Til' i stand in Thy light devine."

Can we thank Him enough? We cannot. Can we repay Him? We cannot. Can we live for Him? Always.