God is ready, Are You?

Yesterday in church we had a special speaker come. His name is Ghuna Kamar(sp) In part of His sermon he talked about forgiving ourselves. He said so many times we ask for God's forgiveness and he gives it to us but then we never forgive ourselves. He said we always think of our past. We always think of the things we have done wrong but God doesn't, once we have asked God to forgive us for our sins he does and forgets about them. The words "If only" are words that are killing our spirit. Forgive yourself, the people around you and then forget. God is asking are you ready ? Forgiving myself is one thing i really struggle with, i pray God would help me each day make less mistakes and help me when i do make mistakes to forgive myself as he has forgiven me.

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1:9

"Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.""
Isaiah 1:18

There will be a Day---

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
 I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone
 Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
 I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….
 There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face. - Jeremy Camp

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.
No matter what you are going through, let me encourage you, there will be a day when NONE of these earthly pains will matter. They simply won't  be there. AT ALL! Isn't our God amazing!! No matter how sad or horrid feeling you feel, there will be a day! Isn't that something to look forward too! Heaven isn't an after thought, it's what we should be focuing on now! When you run a  race you aren't looking at the half point line but the finish!!!

My Broken Neighborhood----

My State, my city, my street is a broken bottle. When a bottle is dropped it crashes into a millon pieces, just like my fellow Mississippians hearts are in a pieces. God's heart is also many broken pieces when we sin. Broken glass is very sharp, sharp enough to pierce the skin and cause all kinds of hurt, disscomfort and pain.  This is my town, street, city thats broken. Mine! What am I doing about it? Nothing! Im to engrossed in myself to notice other peoples broken and shattered lives.  Save my state, street, city dear God. We are on our hands and knees begging and crying out for things to change, we are begging to have our prayers answered. God we know you are near and know you love and hear us. Answer our petitions. Amen

I wrote  "My broken Bottle Neighborhood" after I went to WeWillGo. Since then I have revised what i wrote down and have come up with this, pretty much the same thing as what i wrote before just worded different and a changed title. Before attending WeWillGo with my GoLocal group i had never really thought before of people around me in my neighborhood and city as being broken. I thought broken people were the crack addicts, sex addicts and the bums. After WeWillGo i didn't think that anymore, i mean yes those people are broken but my neighbors are also broken even though they have nice clothes and drive expensive cars. I finally realized your outside appearance doesn't make you broken.
The WeWillGo people encouraged us to walk around our street and pray for the people in the houses they also encouraged us to do lots of praying for our community. One Story they told was about a lady in a really nice neighborhood, she would walk down her street and tell them about the people in each house and how they were broken. One family  had the police come to their house at least once a week because of their son, one family the parents were getting a divorce and the list goes on.
I want to be a missionary  but if i can't be a missionary to my community then how can i be a missionary somewhere else?

Not Welcome In Hell

This morning before church I was making copies and I over heard a lady talking. What she was saying was this "Hell wasn't created for Human Beings." Never in my life had I heard something like this so I kept listening said she heard from a pastor that hell was created for Satan and his demons, but when man sinned it became a place for us.  This is how she explained it "when intruders break into a house the welcoming isn't very cordially. Right? Well when human beings go to hell it's going to be worse for them not only because its hell but because they aren't welcome. Hell wasn' created for us but guess what was? Heaven! As Jesus said in John 14:1-4 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." Thanks be to God who is preparing a place for believers in the Lord Jesus Christ.  Isn't it a spectacular thought that God created a place for US to live with him for eternity!!!

~Called to serve~

Lately I've been thinking and praying a lot about what I'm going to do after high school, this being my junior year, I suppose I should start giving it a little thought :) I've recently had a great desire to go on a mission trip, or more of a desire to do something "big" for God. I was telling Mama about these thoughts, explaining that I felt like I needed to go somewhere far away in order to be serving God. Mama didn't discourage these idea's, but instead she told me that right now I'm where God's put me. Maybe he doesn't need me to go halfway around the world to serve him, or even to do "big" things for him, I can do it right now, here in my home! EVERYWHERE we go we are called to shine the light of Jesus, not only in far away countries, but here, in our communities, in our churches, in our homes. If I can't serve Jesus where he's placed me for the time being, then I certainly can't serve Him anywhere else. Right now, at age 16, I'm under my parents, so one of the best ways I can serve God and bring glory to His name is by honoring my parents and being a help to them right now where he's put me, and if I get a chance to go out in serve well then praise Him! And I'm not saying that going to a far away country is a bad idea, I think spreading the gospel in foreign places is WONDERFUL, but, if that's not where God wants you at the time, don't feel discouraged like there's nothing you can do for Him, look around you, there are opportunities everywhere :)

::My Life for Thee::

I (Bekah) have always had a strong love for poetry, constantly writing my feelings down in the beautiful language of poetic form! Lately I've been thinking about how nothing in this life I do is right. I'm constantly failing, and I'm so full of pride. But Jesus says come, my yoke is easy, my burdens light. I turned some of these thoughts into poetry:

\                      "How oft my heart turns from thee God
                        And looks for worldly goods abroad!
                        My eyes, they wonder from they face
                        To look on things in this worlds space.
                        My tongue, instead of singing praise,
                        Speaks haughtily throughout the day!
                        My feet, instead of walking THY ways,
                        Walk in my paths, and i do stray!
                        In seeing my life, so full of dross,
                        I fear i do forget the cross!
                        How you, the Lamb of Calvary,
                        Suffered, bled and died for me!
                        How can a mortal repay this debt,
                        Being a liar, a sinner, a hypocrite?!
                        And you're response is come to me,
                       My yoke is easy, my grace is free!
                       Lord, use my life for other to see
                       The wonderful things you've done for me!
                       And let my light in this world shine
                       Til' i stand in Thy light devine."

Can we thank Him enough? We cannot. Can we repay Him? We cannot. Can we live for Him? Always.

       

It's called Grace

Grace. It’s one thing that’s harder to comprehend then the trinity.  Grace means this ‘unmerited favor’. So God gives us unconditional love – despite all we do to him and each other” (bible basics). Grace is also defined to be the power from God to do his will.   Grace it’s something that God gives to us, it’s something that God showed us by sending Jesus.  I don’t understand or get why God showed me Grace, I guess that’s why its grace because we don’t understand it.  I can’t grasp my mind around the fact that a perfect complete, without blemish God would want to extend Grace to me, a poor wretched sinner who spits in his face and who nailed him to the cross.  He showed Grace to, me, you, us. My Question is WHY. Why God? Why do you do the things you do? Why do you care about me? Why do you constantly love me? Why do you show me compassion, why?  Is it because you’re my father? Because you made me in your image? Because you love me more than anything?  Is that why you show me such Ultimate Grace. I don’t know the reason you show me grace but I thank you Jesus for your extraordinary grace.  I trust and believe you love me and are with me every day. 

“But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me.”  1 Corinthians 15:10

Jesus Help me be Crazy in Love with You

Recently, as of last week I(Laney) picked up the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I would encourage all of you to pick up a copy of this spectatualr amazing book! This book isn't one you'll pick up read through and say well that's nice for other "Christians" to do. NO This book will make you fall on your hands and knees and will make you experience your christian walk like never before.  One big thing i struggle with is being IN LOVE with Jesus, in love as in always thinking about him, talking or being in his presence. I struggle with being a "lukewarm" christian sometimes probably more then i realize. I get busy with this that and everything else and God kind of falls on my back burner. Over the last few months God has been working in me to focus more on him and less on material things in this world. One example is my phone/facebook, I'm a normal teenager what can i say i love to keep up my friends, but God has taken that desire to always be on facebook or always be on my phone away. I still adore texting my beloved friends but now i just don't do it as much. Anyway back to my back burner, God isn't there anymore and I'm working on him never being there again. I know I'll fail, but at least I'm getting off my bottom and doing something about it. Crazy Love has taught me to Pray more, be in Gods word more and seek him more. It's overwhelming how much God loves and and wants me to be in his presence, and yes i do believe God wants us to want to seek him. Being Crazy in Love with God might mean spending an extra 10 minutes on your knees, it might mean instead of sleeping 15 extra minutes getting up and reading his word .  Maybe it's loving that person in your life who is anything but easy. Out of all the things Ive just said the getting out of bed is probably the hardest for me, but let me tell you its totally worth it. I don't really know what else God wants me to do to become more crazy in love with him but i pray when the time comes  i'll know and I'll be able to do whatever he asks of me. Each day Im seeking to love Jesus more and more!

Strong Enough

A few days ago my mom was talking to a lady in the grocery store and they were talking about this young lady's father and all the many things he has been through. She said he gets irritated when people say "God won't give you more then you can handle." Personally he says God has given him more then he thinks he can handle. God gives us more then we earthly can handle but thank goodness God can handle it! Maybe the reason God gives us more then we can handle is because we wants us to give up handling our own situations and give them over to him. So this week when you don't think you can handle anything remember God can handle anything and everything you give to him, so give him everything and let him work in your life.

"I can do all things through Christ who which strengtheneth me."  Philippians 4:13 KJV

"The Spirit of the Souvereign Lord is on me".....Pslam 61:1-2

"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach the good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners," Psalm 61:1-2

Both of us really love this verse with all our hearts because we believe God has anointed us, we believe he has called us continue on with the work Jesus started 2,000 years ago. To give comfort to the needy and to set the captives free! Isn't it a wonderful thought that Jesus has anointed us teenagers to spread his word, that is something we should cherish and not take lightly! God chose you and me to spread his word, he choose us, poor ratty heartless sinners saved by his grace so we could spread his truth.

Today I was talking to a friend of ours mother, we were discussing spiritual things and she was telling me some of her life stories, one that i want to share!
  
    Her story started like this.......

 "One day, after teaching at school, i was driving home. I wasn't far from the school when i noticed there had been a wreck up ahead. As i passed by I felt God calling me to stop, get out of the car and go see what was wrong. Seeing there were several police officers around, my courage failed me, and i kept driving. I hadn't gone far when i felt God telling me to turn around and go back, so i did, and when i got there, i again felt him calling me to go and check things out, make sure everything was ok, but again my courage failed me, as i wondered, what are those people going to think when little me just walks up in the center of everything? Again, i drove off. Not too long up the road God told me to go back, so i did, but the same thing happened.  I got back in my car, only to drive a small way to hear God calling me back, so  turned around. When i got there i got out, and it was strange, no one even noticed me, i walked right into the center of everything! I looked down on a stretcher to see one of my students, when she saw me she looked so relieved and  called to me and asked me to contact her mother, telling her what had happened and that she was being taken to the hospital (no cell phones back then). So I did. The next day they brought me a small gift, and she thanked me for stopping, saying she had watched several of her other teachers look and drive by. I was so glad God had called me to stop and help that girl, even if it took a while :)"

 Have you ever felt God calling you to do something but you just shake it off, or say, "no God, I'm just too small, I'm just well, me!" I know we have. But if God is telling you to do it, the worst thing we could do is run the other way, or be a Jonah. This story got me pumped for the next time I feel called to say or do something for some one else, even though it may come across as odd to others, you never know how you might be a blessing to that person! So don't be afraid to shine the light of Jesus, and if the world looks at you like you're crazy, that means you're doing the right thing! Dare to be.... abnormal.

Colossians 4:2-4

Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving;
Withal praying for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds:
That I may make it manifest, as i ought to speak.    Colossians 4:2-4
     My grandmother was telling me the other day how my cousin, who just left for a mission trip to Africa had asked that, when praying for him, she pray those verses! I started thinking, aren't those verses something we should be praying for our brothers and sisters in Christ daily? I know i would love for people to pray that whenever i am explaining the gospel of Christ, God would open a door of utterance, that i would be able to speak the right words! As Christians we never know when the opportunity will arise where we are given the chance to speak about the love of Jesus, so to have a friends praying for one another on this behalf would be amazing! Also, please remember my cousin in prayers as he continues on his mission trip, pray that he, and the group he is with will be able to speak the mystery of Christ, and not only for them, but for the rest of your brothers and sisters in Christ as well!

What if i dared to dress DiFeReNtLy?

Its spring time and with spring comes the ideas of short cute dresses, beautiful elegant prom dresses and everything in between. Both Bek and I are going to a Formal party, where we are going to be dressed up in “prom” attire. The hardest thing about this party is finding a beautiful modest dress that covers you but is still well beautiful. As a little girl we have both dreamed of going to “proms” “formals” I guess it’s just the little girl thing to do to dream about being Cinderella in a fancy ball gown and have a prince come sweep you off your feet. Ha ha No we aren’t expecting a prince to sweep us off our feet we are just in high school. Prom dresses having been consuming our minds for the past months, I told my mom id looked at so many dresses they all started to look the same. This whole prom thing what is it really about? For us its about  getting a special dress and getting our hair and makeup done, for others it’s the partying after the prom. Proms having gotten a bad reputation for being filled with drugs, alcohol and all manor of ungodly things, but I think the one thing we miss a lot about proms is the attire . Many many Christian girls go to proms in ungodly attire; I’ve always tried to figure out why. These girls are godly girls I know they love the Lord but still something is missing, and we think we know what. When these Christian girls go shopping for dresses they say well all my friends have no straps so I’ll have one strap and still be modest. No No No. That is comparing yourself with the worlds standards not Gods. I said to my mom this afternoon “It would be so much easier to not worry about modesty” my mom’s quick reply was yes it would be so much easier to follow the world then to follow God where modesty comes in, and its true. The world’s modest standard is so much lower than God its much easier to follow it. Think about it the world makes it easier to follow it then to follow God. Whenever I see something I think would really cute but it’s a little shorter or more reviling my mom always says what would your guy friends think? Would they be embarrassed for you? Would they laugh? Those two sentences have kept me from buying so many articles of clothing that I didn’t think were immodest but when looking at it through a guys perspective it suddenly became horrific. So next time you go shopping try looking at the clothes through a guys perspective, or even better take a brother /Dad or good friend with you when shop!

The Husbands place, The Wives place

We’ve grown up in a culture that says men and women are equal;. In some situations that’s right, women can be layers, judges , and police like men. We think we cross the line when saying the two very different genders are the same because we are not. Physically men are stronger than women that’s the way God made us. Personally I don’t see anything wrong with women being business women until they are negating their children and husband. Through our teenagers people have said women are equal but people have also given the impression that they believe women are no bodies to some extent: house maids ect.. Personally we don’t agree with either statement! In the bible it says to honor and obey your husband, submit to his authority. A few verses over it says men love your wives just as Christ has loved the church. This is what we believe. When and if we get married we want to submit and love our husband, since they would be Christian men they would love us in return. Yes, we’d be under  our husbands will but they would never ask us to do anything against God or the law. Our husbands would try to model Christ’s perfect love to us and we would in return do the same to them. Unfortunately about half of all children in American have no dad in their life. That is a sad fact. Men need to step up to the responsibility and leadership God has placed on them. I thank God for all the men in our lives who love their wives, and children and who follow God with an intense passion. Women, we need to be pure, saving ourselves for marriage. Fidelity will lower the number of children born without a father in their lives. We, women need to step down, submit to our husbands and love the Lord with all our heart,soul,mind and strength!  

::To God be the glory::

 The other night i was talking with a group of friends, all of us discussing a movie we like. We were all laughing and saying what a great movie it is, when we tried to persuade another friend to watch it he simply asked, "Does it benefit the Kingdom?"
 Those words caught me off guard, i laughed, not really knowing how to respond. But then i starting thinking, and replied, "No, it doesn't". I went home that night thinking, ok, what do i ever do that benefits Gods kingdom, or in other words, brings glory to His name? I kept pushing it aside saying don't worry about it, that's just what he thinks, but the more i thought about it the more i realized how right he was!
 Now while i don't think God has a problem with us watching TV (as long as its good and clean), TV has its place. When something starts taking the place of God, that's when we have a problem.... See, God is to be the top priority in our lives and by constantly thinking about a movie/book/food/etc. you're putting it in front of God and his kingdom, you now have an idol, and have put God in second, or third place instead of in number one. Think about it, if some one dies for you, to save you from eternal damnation dont' you think he deserves the VERY BEST in your life? If some one created you don't you think you should give him all the glory? If some one loves you more than ANYONE else in the world, even though you've been horrible towards Him, don't you think you should honor Him? God does ALL of this and SO much more! Why cant we give our Savior more time?! This is something we are praying about right now, that we can be better soldiers in His army, and better Glorify his name! God bless each of you in this too!

::You are More::

You are more then the choices you've made or will make!

We love these words so much sometimes we think that our choices are so horrible God could never love us! That conclusion is incorrect! God is always there with arms wide open ready to receive you his child! Never ever think you are to far down to receive Gods love! Our God is so amazing he loves us so much and never stops loving us , he doesn't like the wrong things we do but he still loves us! In this fast changing World one thing will always stand Gods love no matter how hard times are or how horrible we feel, we can always count on him! He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords!

We love you guys and so does God!

::Less said, more gained::

Ok so what we want to talk about right now is something we are REALLY struggling with......gossip. Just lately we've been really bad about gossiping, and yes i agree, it is VERY hard not to! But then i start thinking, ok i know there are a LOT of thing people could be saying about me..... In Proverbs 11:13 it says "A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret".
 Haha, wow, I just got a slap in the face..... And you know, I think gossip is a much bigger problem for girl than for guys (correct me if I'm wrong). We hear so and so say this, so i tell her, then she tells that other girl,
until it gets back to the original person, and some one always ends up getting hurt, or a friendship is broken. 
Matthew 7:1- Do not judge, or you shall be judged-
 Yeah i know what he/she did may not have been right but as soon as you hear something some ones done you should ask "Have I ever done that?" "Am i vulnerable to doing that?" and last but NOT least "How can I help that person?"
 When some one approaches you with a gossip, our response should be "I would really like to help that person, and i think the first way we can do that is to start with not telling anyone else".
Another thing I've been struggling with is when i hear something i may immediately think, ok he/she deserves for everyone to know, that was so bad/mean/thoughtless! Well you know what? We deserve hell, but Jesus gives us his love, mercy, grace and heaven! The bible doesn't say do unto others as they deserve, it says do unto others as you would have them do unto you! So the next time your hear something, think before you turn and tell the person behind you :) I hope we all can try to work on this :) Have a blessed day!

**Thats The Beauty Of Grace**

Do y'all  ever feel like your problems are too much for God or that he doesn't understand? Well speaking plainly the only reason why we think our problems are to much for him is beacuse we are looking at our problems from our human perspective. Going through life we always like hanging on to our own problems, we people have no humility. We sometimes think we are bigger and better then God, that is such a lie! Jesus is such an amazing Savior isn't he? He's holding all of our human struggles and us in his hands.... there is no place where God's love isn't able to reach out and grab us! Thank you Lord Jesus! Always loving,caring and nurturing  he really is an AMAZING God! Sometimes we have thought, how can "God ever love us?" We've  messed up so much..we have hurt people, lied, cheated, and have had so many other incounters with sin but Jesus still loves us! I guess thats the Beauty of Grace. Grace abounds to every connor of this sin sicken word!

::Thinking Before You Speak::

Trying to think of something to write about I(Laney) went through my mind trying to pin point distinct problems that i struggle with, the biggest thing that came through my head is NOT thinking before i speak and just plopping something out there. It's an EXTREMELY bad problem i have, for one reason i never ever had good comebacks  and good comeback's is something I've always wanted to have probably because i always thought I'd make people respect us more or think higher of us. Unfortunately it did quite the opposite instead of making people think higher of us it sometimes made no sense to them and came off mean even when we didn't mean too! It's not that we were/are  insecure we just always wanted to be that person that gets "awww's." Growing up and getting more mature(and with a lot of help from parents and some awesome friends) we've discovered that trying to be someone your not or saying something that isn't what your supposed to say is not a good thing! Our mom's have always told us we like to speak our mind which is a good thing until you need to shut up ha ha we probably need to shut up more often but anyway personally we think its very hard not speaking your mind  when you know something is different then how it comes across! This morning I(Laney) was talking with my mom and i said something like you know its a lot saying what you mean on face book, a blog, the radio or t.v. then it is looking someone straight in the face and saying the truth. I think we was getting saying the truth and then just blabbing way confused, asking God to help us has proved to be a great help its giving us the needed confidence to say something that makes sense and is true before stinking our foot in our mouth! So as girl's who struggle with speaking out of turn please don't give up if you do the same thing it's a bad habit but can be overcome.. Pray pray pray, ask God for wisdom on what to say and when to say it! We're no way near to perfect but we want become closer each and everyday!!

::My yoke is easy::

 Something Laney and I have really been struggling with lately is worry. Over analyzing things, and just plain worrying until it literally makes us feel sick. We've also been doing a lot of praying about it too, and really, prayer is the BEST thing EVER!! We're reminded of a verse from a hymn, "Oh what peace we often forfeit! Oh what needless pain we bear! All because we do not carry, everything to God in prayer!" And really so true! Every time after we've talked to God about the thing thats bothering us i may get a text saying "Bekah, I've handed it to God and i feel SO much better!" Or Laney might get a text saying, "Ive given my worries to Him and i already feel better!" Here are some of the good verses we found on worry!

Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for i am meek and lowly in heart:
and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burdens light.
                                      Matthew 11:28-30
"For my yoke is easy, and my burdens light!" *sighs* Oh what a mighty God we serve! Those verses are so very important to us right now, constantly reminding us we not only can give it to him, he WANTS us to give our burdens to him! So the next time you may be worrying about something try taking a deep breath, going somewhere quiet, and pouring your soul to the healer of souls! Another good thing to do is encourage some one who is worrying. We ask eachother daily how the other is, and pass around bible verses we've found that are helpful, and remind eachother to take it to God, and it makes the load so much easier to bear!Also, a friend of ours is always sending texts asking if you need prayer for anything, and this is such a good thing to do, letting some one know that if they're going through something you want to pray for them! An example we should follow!  I hope if any of you are struggling with this as well you will try this!Its helped Laney and I so much! Have a blessed day!

::His child he will not forget::

We were very excited when we heard that a very good friend of ours, (who's name we'll leave out) wanted to share her testimony on our blog! I hope this blesses each of you!

 "I grew in a Christian home, enthusiastic about Sunday school, memorizing bible passages just like any Christian child. Needless to say, i always thought i would be close to God, as i was then. But at age 13, some thing changed. My dad felt strongly called to be a pastor so he packed up our family and moved  to Mississippi. At first life was AWESOME. All my fear of not finding friends left when a girl at our church instantly befriended me, she was really nice to me, called me her "best friend".  This is when my relationship with the Lord started going downhill. My friend was in the "cool group" and i guess i figured that with all the cool people i didn't need God anymore. I was so wrong. Then things turned from bad to worse when my "friend" on day, for absolutely no reason completely ignored and forgot about me, hanging with another girl in the church. I didn't understand, what had i done wrong? I started questioning myself. Am i not pretty enough to be her friend and hang in the cool group? Maybe I'm too overweight to hang with the cool people? This whole trail of thoughts led me to a very wrong decision....i was going to starve myself. I started not eating, and if i did eat i immediately made myself throw it up. I never felt so alone as i did then. My parents found out after 10 days, and i had already, in 10 days lost 15 pounds. My parents gave me two decisions, i could start eating, or they would have to take me to the hospital. I really didn't want to go to the hospital so i chose to start eating again. I'm sharing all of this because its not a joke. So many teenage girls these days are struggling with the thought that starving themselves is going to make things better, but its a serious, serious thing, and you could die from it. Even if you don't you still have the painful memories of what you did, even if it only lasted 10 days.  Thank goodness that's not the end of my testimony! Its been a year now since that happened and my relationship with the Lord and my parents has grown exceedingly! God as done so much good in my life through all the bad. He has made me see myself for who i am and not what others think about me. He has made me trust in him and realize through the good and bad he is ALWAYS with me! He has given me so many good friends and people in my life to look up to and get me through this! Now i never think about my weight! I exercise to stay fit but i am never so discouraged that i think the same thoughts that i did. Everybody needs to know how serious your mind can effect you. I'm not mean to say that in a discouraging way, but as an encouraging thing to know that if you have a good relationship with Jesus that he can always get you through anything! Id just like to end this with a bible verse that helped me through everything, Psalms 118:1-6, 17-18.
 His love endures forever.
 Let Israel say,"His love end ours forever"
 Let the house of Aaron say, "His love endures forever"
 Let those who fear say, "His love endures forever"
 In my anguish i cried to the Lord and and he answered me by setting me free. The Lord is with me I will not
 be afraid. What can man do to me?


 I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.
 The Lord has chastened me severely, but he has not given me over to death.

We hope you enjoyed this testimony as much as we did! We would like to give special thanks to our friend for sharing it with us for our blog, we love you dear :) Have a blessed day everyone!

--::While I'm Waiting::--

Flood every corner of this room
Flood all my emptiness with You
Lord, I long to be consumed
And I’m calling for a flood      

So flood every chamber of my heart
Flood what I lack with all You are
I am dry and I am parched
And calling for a flood

I am calling for a flood
Holy Spirit flow
Completely immerse me in You
I’m longing for a flood
Of holiness to wash me now
Hear me, Lord; I’m calling for a flood

Now flood every portal of my mind
And flood everything I’ve tried to hide
I am looking to the sky
And I’m calling for a flood

Submerge me, Lord, in holy water
Drown me to live in You

Flood every corner of this room
And fill all the emptiness with You
Lord, we long to be consumed
And we’re calling for a flood

We are calling for a flood
Holy Spirit flow
Completely immerse us in You
We’re longing for a flood
Of holiness to wash us now
Hear us, Lord; we’re calling for a flood

Holiness, holiness
So flood this place with holiness
You are holy, Lord immerse us in Your

Holiness, holiness
So flood this place with holiness
You are holy

Hear us, Lord, we’re calling for a flood
We’re calling for a flood
Hear us, Lord, we’re calling for a flood


We love this song,because it feels like sometimes God just leaves us, but you know he never leaves us. He's always there right beside us. Our basketball coach always says you need to be able to move without the ball. When he says that it reminds us of our christian walk...we need to be able to grow as Christian's even when everything we could ever imagine goes wrong,not just in the good times when its easy to grow. Thinking about the early Christian's, how many people nowadays do you think would give up everything they have and follow Christ,hang on a cross,be stoned and whipped. I doubt if even we could do it, but we want to be able to give up our life's for Christ. Strong faith is what we strive for and we hope y'all do too!!